For the record...

So on Sunday, I taught Relief Society. I was subbing for one of the sisters in our ward and taught the lesson about the divine organization of the Relief Society. We talked a lot about being more of a sisterhood and helping each other and being there for each other. We also talked about how we all seem to think we are the only ones who have bad days, hard times, difficult children, etc. but of course, that isn't true. We all have these problems. Afterwards, I had a few sisters tell me that they felt this way and it felt like we, as women, tend to always put our best moments out there for the world to see (like on Facebook, blogs, etc.) as if to prove that we have it all together. We tend to measure our own personal "worsts" with other women's "bests". I have done this myself. But no more.

So, for the record. I don't have it all together...I don't even have it almost all together. Most of the time I feel like a crazy lunatic running at a frantic pace that I can't keep up with. I try to keep my house clean, but my version of clean is probably not up to the standard of others. But I figure with 5 young children, I am doing good as long as the health department isn't called, right? I usually feel like I am coming up short when it comes to my parenting and beat myself up all the time about this. I am not good at Visiting Teaching. I need to lose the "baby weight" that has never gone away after 5 kids. I am horrible at reading my scriptures and need to be better. I yell at my kids too much. I don't take enough time for myself and the things that I enjoy doing. I have major trust issues. I am SO behind on my scrapbooking...Sadie and Jaxson don't even have scrapbooks! I can't bake a good batch of chocolate chip cookies. I wish I had hardwood floors, light fixtures, backyard landscaping, a trailer, and a new kitchen table. It usually takes me about 3 days to finally get all of the laundry done each week. I am pretty much addicted to Diet Coke to get me through the day due to major sleep deprivation with a newborn. Currently Sadie has an awful smelling poopy diaper that I am procrastinating changing.

So, there you have it. Let's just be real and realize that no woman is perfect. No woman always has it all together. We all have bad days and good days and it would sure be a better world if we could turn to each other as women to build each other up, rather than being in competition with each other and an unrealistic and unattainable life. 'Nuff said.